the struggle is real.
"Your word is like a lamp that guides my steps, a light that shows the path I should take".
Psalms 110:105 ERV
I have been struggling quite a bit on the concept of 'letting go, and letting God".
Life can be tricky. On one side, it is a wonderful thing, given to us by God, that is meant to be enjoyed, cherished and never taken for granted. But, on the other hand, it can be challenging. It can be hard, cruel, and an endless cycle of wake, grind, sleep, and repeat.
Over the past few months, I have been tested. Tested in my faith, tested in my home life, and tested in my career. I have been living a life of tunnel vision lately. So focused on controlling and handling whatever is going on in front of me by myself, that I am failing to keep into view the one thing that is the most important. More than money, more than getting ahead, and more than family. Though my love for God is persistent, my FAITH and TRUST in Him has not been consistent. To trust God completely; to accept the fact I don't control everything, but that HE controls all, and that HE will ensure my success and happiness sounds so good. But to actually abide by that notion relentlessly can be challenging.
I am learning to be still more during certain times in the day. To truly step away from the hectic daily grind that I have found myself in and just be still in silence and seek him. To let go of control, and to surrender all of yourself to God, first requires acknowledgment from you to God that you understand that there is a problem, but that you want God to take over completely body, mind, and soul.
Is anyone else battling the need to control everything in their life?
Let me know your thoughts.
- Dura
